Birthday Blow-Out

I have been planning a huge birthday party for Jose. He turns 40 next month. He let me know earlier this year that he wanted a party for his birthday, but little did I know that it would turn into the huge affair that it is becoming. I figured that we would have a little party here at our house, with perhaps 40 or so people. Now the amount of people has doubled (impossible for our small house) and I have rented a hall to have the party at. I have also hired a DJ and a security guard (the hall insists on security to obtain the beer permit). It's a City of Tucson thing. The food will be catered (Mexican) and the theme is (what else?) Fiesta! It's going to be a lot of fun, but my budget certainly wasn't figuring on all of these expenses. Mind you, I am not poor and I make good money. But I recently bought a new car and my finances have been suffering because of it. I used to be able to save a significant amount of money each month that would go into my CD account, but the car payment has eliminated that. I haven't been able to save anything at all (this is one of my biggest fears, not having enough money to retire on). I love my new car and I would not give it up for anything, but not being able to save money really sucks! Between the car payment, our home improvement loan, and now this birthday party, I feel like I am drowning in debt (maybe because I am!). I never intended on paying for a hall or a DJ. Those are expensive things! Don't get me wrong......Jose is worth spending that kind of money on, but the way that he just expected it of me didn't sit well. I would never expect or ask anyone to spend that kind of money on me. To me it's kind of wasteful, to spend this much money on a party, but then I am a cheap and frugal person. Jose is only cheap when it comes to me. We could have just as much fun at a $500 party, versus a $1500 party. It would not cheapen the celebration in my opinion, but I know Jose puts MAJOR emphasis on how much money a person will spend on him. He guages a person's love for him based on that fact. I'm sure the party will be a smashing success and I will look back later at the amount I spent and think nothing of it. But at this very moment, my pocketbook is screaming in agony!! It's also EMPTY!!

Sheeba has been doing fine since her seizures a few weeks back. She actually had a third seizure not long after my last post, but it was a very minor one compared to the two previous. I have not seen her have one since then. It's so awful to watch her have the seizure......it's like the cat you know and love disappears and is replaced with a non-responsive cat. It's like she goes into a fog and can't find her way out. It's heartbreaking and scary. I hope she does not have another. Maya has finally accepted Sheeba back into her life and stopped hissing and swatting. They are old friends again, chasing each other through the house.